SHIT. What the heck am I even thinking about. Why did it have to happen again.

No, I can't go through it another time. I really can't. I lost control of myself again and I'm gonna have to go through all of it again. I thought I'd overcome it already, but it seems that I haven't.

Why...... I don't get it. Why did it have to happen again. I'm so lost and its hurting me on the inside.

My life is a real mess right now.

Just,
hui